Calan Max Robets, 1 year old!!!

Calan had his first birthday yesterday and I just can't believe it! I really does just seem like i had him yesterday!!! and it makes me sad because we have decided not to have any more kids and so now that my baby isn't such a baby anymore it does make me sad. But that's ok because my sister and sister-in-laws are having babies to help cure my baby cravings!! anyways, he was so dang cute on his birthday and I swear he is not 1 more like 2! he is so active and advanced, at least in my eyes he is. Randy's mom had a dinner at her house for him and made a cake and his aunt Kellee made him his own special little cake. He got so many cute things to play with and for the most part I think it went really well!
He dug right in to his little cake!!!

He was so cute with everything he got he just kept smiling!!

He thought he was so big sitting on those chairs then he starting standing on them. Sit down Calan you are only 1!!!

He was blowing kisses and squinting his eyes when I told him to smile!

My Love

Well most of you probably don't know what Randy does for a living but he is a 7 year apprentice Electrician and has worked for his dad for several years most of it he has spent traveling out of town. He has had other jobs in between because it is hard for all of us for him to be be away. Well his dad ran out of work in December because of the tough economic times and he had to find work else where which was paying him probably half of what he had been making. well it has been pretty tough for us the past view months financially but we have really enjoyed having him home every single day and I loved having my best friend here with me to help me through each day! Well with lots of consideration and questioning we have decided that he go back to work for his dad out of town! He left today for Oakland California for probably about 2 weeks. I don't know what I am going to do without my best friend and my rock here to help me through. He has only been gone for a couple hours and already I am feeling empty! It makes me question if money and material things like our house and car is worth it. I think I would almost have him here making half of what he is just to have my family whole. It is so hard for me to get through each day and to be strong and take care of our 4 kids without him! I hate going to bed at night without my babe there next to me! I HATE money and wish that we could live and survive without it. Hopefully I can just get through these 2 weeks so I can see my love again! I am just happy and grateful that he has work and we can get caught up! I am so proud to have a husband willing to sacrifice to support his family. Thank goodness for my 4 beautiful kids who will help me get through each day happy and thankful for what I have! I love my family I have the best one in the world!!!